I smelled the air today, felt like
everything I have lost
All the promise and hope went up in
the air running with the wind
I felt my mind shatter, maybe one
too many fragments spluttering
I felt my heart shiver, shuddering
with the thought it was still existent
I felt my soul gently wander,
hopefully, yearning for a way out
I felt everything scatter, my body
giving up on my mere existence
I was suddenly alone, alone and
hoping to leave myself too
It suddenly feels like clockwork,
everyone leaving and I watching
Feels like clockwork, everyone
deserting me while I try to run
Feels like clockwork, the world
disappearing and I giving in
It feels all too familiar, the
heartache of expecting too much
It feels all too familiar the
surging pain of seeing the best in the world
It all feels too familiar, like the
renaissance period but with an unappreciative world
It stops hurting someday, words I
have heard way too many times
It gets better sometimes, phrases I
have mastered all too well
Maybe the clock will finally tick,
and all will be wiped away
Maybe the world will lighten up,
and she will finally appreciate
Maybe she will understand, I lived
only for her
Maybe she will realize I died every
day for her
Perhaps she will look my way and
smile, maybe chuckle
Perhaps she will appreciate me for
always trying to lift her up
Or perhaps she will look away, look
to where the grass is greener
It is all clockwork anyway, hoping
with time, but dying through it
